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Enix150
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Name: so-and-so
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Birthday: 4/11/1990
Gender: Male
Interests: i dont really do much other than running and being a bum.... ah yes i also like winning ;)
Expertise: pimpin' obviously.... other than that im an expert at knowing eveything
Occupation: Military
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Enix150
Member Since:
4/24/2004
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| ok so im gonna be sick tomorrow and not go to school. i was sick today like my throat hurt, i coughed some had a headache and stomachache i was really tired too! when i got home i fell asleep. then on the ride to armory i slept again. i ran my first race good, but the second was right after... i got boned. needless to say this made my throat hurt alot more.... the air in there is alsways so dry, my throat always like dies. not just my throat, it starts in the mouth and goes down to the lungs....ow. ok so agora this year is gonna suck major D cuz nothing got accepted, but whatev.... i got a decent schedule assming i get what i want! prolly wont with my luck.... some people are starting to piss me off..... no, not you. other people.... (not you either.) im thirsty... and sick... and i have to do an english paper by tomorrow... and i shoulda finished my japanese speech... and that hist paper is due friday.... yeah, i cant get it done in time.... i cant even focus on anything.... im goona go to sleep soon... tomorrow ill shower and do all my work, then ill be a happy panda (for a short while) then ill go back to being a sad panda when i realize how boned i am in everything... ok well sometimes i just feel like dieing... like... i have the constant feeling of waiting. its like everyday is the day before xmas, and i want it to come sooo badly, but the happy day never comes. so i look ahead to see when shit will get better.... and you know what? it wont. probably ever. so thats why i kinda want to die....im kinda hungry.... i dunno what to do tho... ok well gnight i guess.... mb ill play some ddr tommorrow... byes
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| hmmm well ive just about been reduced to nothing... i dont know why im even updating this... it doesnt matter. although there is still a hatred inside that is really starting to bug me.... in truth, theres nothing i can do. i still love her. thats not going to change. everyones just pissing me off...i just wish it would go away... get all better, like it was before. but i guess thats gone now. i cant be happy again. why cant people just be happy with where they are? things always have to change. why? it was working then... boom. my world is destryoed. but then a light. it can all get better. it does. things brighten up... everything goes back almost to how it should be... a shadow lurks in the corner. i know what will happen. it did. i died inside. happiness is gone for me now. it came back for only one day. one day was just enough... i didnt give up. but then... my hope is wasted, dieing... if it isnt already dead. in the end i suppose none of this matters....in the end we all die. but should i press on? | | |
| ok well... im back bitches! yeah...ok so im allowed on the computer again. the 'rules' are that i get 1 hour on weekdays, and 2 hours on weekends. like that will last haha! we bought another box of ramen, i think ill bring half of it to school... yeah..as for other things.... they kinda suck, but not entirely i guess. i suppose it could be worse... it could be raining! some people are kind of annoying me..alot of the girls are nice to talk to, but if they form a group... its like a beast. they start talking about all the preppy stupid shit. yeah... attention whores...alot of the guys are assholes too. and people keep bugging me about angelina, which is fine. i dont give a shit at all, but they bug her. that pisses me off. she actually cares about what people think and it makes her so sad sometimes... its kind of stupid, but the're really assholes about it. ok well as for angelina, i dont know. just dont ask cuz i have no fucking idea. i never do though... so whatev. ah... and people keep seeming to think that im a complete dumass. just because i do things sometimes to be funny. everyone assumes im always stupid. yeah... they also assume i never do my homework and i fail all my classes. although.... i am kind of sucking in english.  i suppose im that school-smart, but i know the more... philosophical side of life. i think about it all the time. and i guess im kind of like a psychologist. yeah. but im partially giving up on that for now. most people are too stupid to take my advice, and i dont look like the best example cuz im not the happiest right now. so yeah.. ima go now, cuz at midnight the internet shuts off... ah, just wait until i can bypass it....hopefully soon. now ill go listen to the LFO CD she gave me. | | |
| wellyeah ok i guess its time to post again...omg peer preasure!! so yes.... lets see how things are going... theyre ok? i dunno... i really thought that the three wouldnt leave... it kinda pisses me off... and then other things.... yeah well im not going to winter formal. this weekend we had a ghost in the shell marathon (we watched both movies) and the second one rawked my sawks. it was awsome how well they incorporated both anime and cgi... other than that... lifes kinda sucky.... not as bad as before... but not good. kinda because i hadnt had one happy day in months, but then i had one... but now its kinda going down again. its like a drug. once you have a bit you want more. hehe. most of my moneys gone :( but its worth it... yeah i think one of the little kids stole a few dollars from me... but its too much of a fight to try and get it back. my parents have been in S Carolina since friday and are gone until tuesday.... and wendy our maid/babysitter person brought her kids over... so i dunno which stole teh money... all of them seem kind of annoying... it might just be me... oh well.... omg caitlin! bye | | |
| ok well hi, im at grainger and im leaving soon. i just got the urge to update this... i dunno why. if you havent noticed by now (if you havent, you probably dont care.) that i am kicked off of my home computer, thus i cant update my xanga... yeah. i was actually going to update often, but the i got grounded  ok so, i now only get online at grainger, and i am obsessed with gaia! lol ok im really sick, tired, but i did get food tho yay! i have no real music cuz im at grainger... whatev... my flooble almost died again oh well... i saved him....and i get alot of spam... silly spam trix are for kids! my head really hurts. and my throat. and my joints are sore...angelinas falut!! she got me sick.... ok well i think ima just go home soon... watch some tv and sit on my ass. yup. oh yeah, zelda 64 (ocarina of time, of course) rules. im beating it again... but it got taken away  ill just have to use my trixy skillz to find it or get it back somehow... btw, im trying to ressurect the rp ok? ok well gnight then... ow... | | |
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